Giving Birth

Just reminscing a bit..I remember when I said, "I didn't  want to have any children." I thank God for knowing all things! I remember thinking how my life was going to change drastically when I found out that I was going to be a mother! I was petrified when I realized that I would be responsible for another soul. Then, as time went on I bonded with the little life inside of me and I knew that I was going to do everything in my power to make life better for my precious child. 

 I remember having to overcome so many obstacles and setbacks but in light of what I had to look foward to, they seemed miniscule. Then, my well anticipated due date came and went, and then another week went by, and another week came...I knew something wasn't right! Every mom "just knows" when something just "aint right." Well, I was checked in L&D and placed on pitocin to induce my labor. After 2 days of laboring still nothing! Doctors were going to send me home and I was not happy! While waiting to be released I heard...code blue, code blue, and I was oblivious as to why everyone was moving like lightening and I heard the "Chief OB" doctor being paged to L&D. (This was not my original doctor but he was the best one on staff). 

Then, a nurse comes in and tells me that I must turn over! I asked her what was going on and she couldn't answer my questions but her face had a look of fear all over it. I was told "You are having an emergency C-Section now because we have lost your baby's heartbeat." At that moment I know my heart skipped a beat too..I remember having the same petrified feeling months earlier when I learned that I was going to be a mom. All I could think was "Jesus" please don't let this baby die! 

I learned that the baby had aged in my womb. The umbilical cord was wrapped around her neck twice and she was controlling her own bowels. It seemed like forever as I waited for her arrival. There was a long pause of silence and then I heard a loud cry!!! A tear fell from my eyes with relief. Then, the doctor went on to tell me of the miracle. "Your daughter is breathing on her own, she is a fighter! We don't know how long she had been under that type of distress but her life sustainment in the womb was no longer an environment in which she could thrive." She had literally outgrown her environment. It was time for her to live outside of the womb and she was trying to come but she had been hindered!

The nurse asked if I had a name for her? I had planned to name her something different, but I heard the Lord say, "her name is Gabrielle." She was named after the archangel Gabriel because it was clear that the "Lord was her strength." At the time, I did not know the meaning  or significance of naming her Gabrielle, but God knew what I did not know. My daughter is indeed a fighter and she thrives when she is helping others! She has blessed me in so many ways.

There are times when I think, "Lord, help me with this child, because she is so strong and independent," but God has a job for her to do, just as HE does for each of us. He knew what was best for me! And everything has worked in His Timing, not mines.

Wherever you are in your birthing process, just remember that God is in control!! In all things "give thanks," and when it is time for you to give birth, you must! Or, you are only hindering you! God has something amazing for you! Just wait on the Lord and don't give place to fear! Just remember, Perfect Love cast out all fear. Faith has no place for fear! Have a blessed day!

I love you all, but God loves you more!